My New Poetry Book is to be published soon. My book is called: 'Keep Smiling!'
Poems from my own experiences and empathy, also poems of hope and faith. There are poems to show how to take charge of the thoughts, which occur during our darkest moments and poems to direct us towards the light.
I am a cancer survivor and one who has come through the realms of darkness where suicidal tendencies reside and often dominate.
My motto is: Never give up, no matter!
Below are some poems from my new book:
Poems from my own experiences and empathy, also poems of hope and faith. There are poems to show how to take charge of the thoughts, which occur during our darkest moments and poems to direct us towards the light.
I am a cancer survivor and one who has come through the realms of darkness where suicidal tendencies reside and often dominate.
My motto is: Never give up, no matter!
Below are some poems from my new book:
Cancer survivor:
Uncertain about what was wrong
Procrastinating all along
On what I hear and read about
All the time just casting doubt
One doc says its all ok
Just take this, it'll go away
I try his remedy and many more
But still there's something wrong, it's sore
A second opinion the only choice
The answer this time is not so nice
They say the bold word empathically
A jail term incurs, now I'm not free
Days before they operate
Self esteem just wasn't great
The evening sun up on the parapet
Think some more, another cigarette
I have to make it for my children and wife
If only to allow them a better life
I cannot leave them where they are
My children will not go very far
But what if this is it, the end of the road
I'm going to rest in my final abode
No matter what there's one thing for sure
I can only accept whatever it'll will incur
I'm not going to worry my self to death
A conscience clear, has no need to fret
My body, my vehicle, may well break down
But my spirit in truth has no need to frown
My spirit rose and saved me
At the mercy of the big C
Turbo'd by my wife and children
And some friends and family
Find your reason to go on
Then believe with all you've got
That you will be there to see it through
But know it won't change things, if your not.
Seven years later I write this poem
Through the grace of God my energy's still flowing
I think it's back with each ache and pain
But those kind of thoughts could drive me insane
All those aches I felt long before the cancer
They're just normal, of that I am sure
I have no worries, each day is a gift
It's my own duty to give my spirit a lift
A raised spirit holds so much strength
I held my faith without relent
With the angels above and by my side
No fear, anguish or anxieties to hide
A message for you who got the bad news
I'm either lucky or blessed to still stand in my shoes
I never gave up, I held hope in my heart
To my surprise I was given a new start
John Hayden Copyright © 2012
Uncertain about what was wrong
Procrastinating all along
On what I hear and read about
All the time just casting doubt
One doc says its all ok
Just take this, it'll go away
I try his remedy and many more
But still there's something wrong, it's sore
A second opinion the only choice
The answer this time is not so nice
They say the bold word empathically
A jail term incurs, now I'm not free
Days before they operate
Self esteem just wasn't great
The evening sun up on the parapet
Think some more, another cigarette
I have to make it for my children and wife
If only to allow them a better life
I cannot leave them where they are
My children will not go very far
But what if this is it, the end of the road
I'm going to rest in my final abode
No matter what there's one thing for sure
I can only accept whatever it'll will incur
I'm not going to worry my self to death
A conscience clear, has no need to fret
My body, my vehicle, may well break down
But my spirit in truth has no need to frown
My spirit rose and saved me
At the mercy of the big C
Turbo'd by my wife and children
And some friends and family
Find your reason to go on
Then believe with all you've got
That you will be there to see it through
But know it won't change things, if your not.
Seven years later I write this poem
Through the grace of God my energy's still flowing
I think it's back with each ache and pain
But those kind of thoughts could drive me insane
All those aches I felt long before the cancer
They're just normal, of that I am sure
I have no worries, each day is a gift
It's my own duty to give my spirit a lift
A raised spirit holds so much strength
I held my faith without relent
With the angels above and by my side
No fear, anguish or anxieties to hide
A message for you who got the bad news
I'm either lucky or blessed to still stand in my shoes
I never gave up, I held hope in my heart
To my surprise I was given a new start
John Hayden Copyright © 2012
Pain and Passion
It’s that pain in my heart again
Too sore for the strongest men
Too sad for my fountain pen
To capture in words
Tears surge from my chest
Relentless feeling gives no rest
It’s got to be the biggest test
Of all the different hurts
Emotional winter, the sharpest cold
A shrivelled spirit will unfold
The deepest truth it ever told
Only love can save you
A broken trust shows no repair
Even though we both still care
Paranoia everywhere
After all we’ve been through
In my passion my pain subsides
Somehow it overrides
Like the turning of the tides
Comforting my heart
My passion oozes from my pen
I know I’ll face that pain again
I’ll stay in now, until then
With the love I knew from the start
John Hayden Copyright © 2012
Free Yourself
A whirlpool of nasty thoughts
Rushing through my mind
On becoming aware of them
With erupting emotions combined
In the midst of this madness
A glimpse of light appears
Instantaneously dispelling
Almost all my related fears
Contradictory thoughts
Quelling my emotional outburst
My self observation
Is now putting me first
For years I was trapped
In that whirlpool of thoughts
For years one side of my mind
With the other side fought
The bad thoughts manifesting
Taking over my head
Quiet desperation
No words said
Holding those emotions
Brought cancer to me
Emotional blocks in my system
Energy not flowing free
Awareness releasing me
From bondage and misery
Wasn't blind but couldn't see
It feels good being free
John Hayden© 2007
A whirlpool of nasty thoughts
Rushing through my mind
On becoming aware of them
With erupting emotions combined
In the midst of this madness
A glimpse of light appears
Instantaneously dispelling
Almost all my related fears
Contradictory thoughts
Quelling my emotional outburst
My self observation
Is now putting me first
For years I was trapped
In that whirlpool of thoughts
For years one side of my mind
With the other side fought
The bad thoughts manifesting
Taking over my head
Quiet desperation
No words said
Holding those emotions
Brought cancer to me
Emotional blocks in my system
Energy not flowing free
Awareness releasing me
From bondage and misery
Wasn't blind but couldn't see
It feels good being free
John Hayden© 2007
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